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"You're so near and yet so far away..."

"Love is something people should never mess with because once hurt it will never heal the pain you've experienced."

"I never felt this crushed in a long time, who caused it?"

"Hearts were never meant to be broken, but why people still break them?"

"I have a lot of questions in my mind, but no answers were heard at all."

"You are the melody of my lyrics, and together we make a heartwarming song."

"Why bother coming near me if your gonna stay away sooner or later."

"Are you my knight in shining armor? Or are you just one of those people who just likes to hurt?"

"Why am I thinking of all these things? if I can just keep this burried in my heart."

Something to Cheer you up:"Don't talk with your mouth open"

There I Was

There I was, standing behind a column. Watching you from afar as you enjoy your day. With the friends you love so dear, you talk about one true love. You say she had long shiny hair, red cherry lips, and a smile full of hope. I wondered and wondered, who is this one true love of yours is.

There I was, searching for the girl of your dreams. Searching to let her know that she was being loved. My journey continues, but no luck. It was hard to find her. Again and again I wondered, why am I searching for her presence just to congratulate her with a smile.

There I was, so confused inside. Why is there no pain. If there is, why isn't it tearing me to pieces? Wandering thoughts start to pile up and explode. And now I'm back in reality, away from the thoughts which caused me my own pain.

There I was, resting under a shady green tree. Exhausted from the journey that was a complete failure. Suddenly, I see you standing from a distance, staring at my eyes. It could be a dream, for I see you coming closer and closer, your feet stepping on the solid ground, towards me. My heart starts to pound faster and faster that I now know that this wasn't a dream, it was real.

There I was, shocked, silent as a mouse. There you are coming so close to me. Holding my warm hand, touching my black long shiny hair, looking at my deep dark brown eyes, and asked me to show that hopeful smile. Our faces getting so close and closer.

Is it by Black Rose

Did you recall?
How you and I met
Did you recall?
All the times you and I spent

We laughed,
And told the moments we’ve shared
Hearts start to throb
I feel that it is love

**
What did you feel?
Is it real?
Is it love?
Is it for me?

What will you say?
Is it today?
Is it hard for you?
What will you do?
Will you say ‘I love you‘?

Did you like?
When we were holding hands
Did you hate?
The times when you and I fight

Those are our moments
Our magical fairytale
You’re my prince and I’m your princess
I see true love at bay

**
What did you feel?
Is it real?
Is it love?
Is it for me?

What will you say?
Is it today?
Is it hard for you?
What will you do?
Will you say ‘I love you‘?

But why did we have to part
Our love was God’s greatest art
The love,
That was the fruit of our hearts

**2
Now it’s time
Time at last
Tell me why
Your heart ’s beating fast

Tell me what
You want to say
I want to know
Speak your mind, heart and soul

Tell me what your heart tells you
Tell me what your mind tells you
Tell me what your soul tells you
Who do you want to spend with,
The rest of your life

Is it me?

My Reply to learn to stand

It's okay, It's alright
You know that you're forgiven
Let go of that guilt,
so you can sleep at night
It's all right

I'm Sorry, I'm sorry
That you felt that way
be free from the guilt that grabbed you
Forget the Promises that hurt you

We know we promised
To make a song about the stars in the sky
Though it is a broken promise you've made
I'll forget it,but it isn't simple

Go ahead, I can stand from here
And wait, for me to walk again
Not needing anyone's help
this is a lesson I must learn

Alone is what i want to be
I just have to survive
this life
thats causing me pain

Got to Let You Go by Black Rose

You said you liked me
I liked you as it should be
You told me yesterday,
but I guess I have to say

**I got to let you go
My heart keeps telling me no!
My heart was torn apart,
but it was broken from the start

I got to let you go,
but thanks for letting me know
I need to go now(I have to go now)
I need to go now.

You gave me gifts that showed me you cared
I'll give you one if my friends gave me a dare
Your favorite colors in your wrapper,
but something's written on that paper

**I got to let you go
My heart keeps telling me no!
My heart was torn apart,
but it was broken from the start

I got to let you go,
but thanks for letting me know
I need to go now(I have to go now)
I need to go now.

Our memories were sweeter than chocolate
10 over 10 if I was told to rate it,
then time passes to see my regrets
It was bad and bitter than it gets

**I got to let you go
My heart keeps telling me no!
My heart was torn apart,
but it was broken from the start

I got to let you go,
but thanks for letting me know
I have to go now
I should've gone now...

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The Part of My Heart...

My heart aches like a thousand swords stabbing my painful memories triggering each moment I spent with you. Hearing the screams of my pain, and regret. An infinite possibilities of ones feelings, and a limited ways to overcome it...all. My expressions hidden, people not knowing what I am thinking in the inside of my head I feel these feelings in my heart, and as the weight of my burdens increase; it also adds to the pain I get in my heart.


If I can ask God one question, a question that I wanted to ask for a long time, why were we given feelings? We are happy with some of these feelings He blessed us with, but why do we have these feelings that makes us suffer so much, that we want to surrender just to take this aching feeling away from our hearts. I have thought of that over and over, days, weeks, months, and even years; sadly, I have not answered my own question, nor I couldn’t ask others for their meanings.


As I come nearer to your heart, my eyes see yours flies farther away from my delicate hands. You see me as a smiling girl cheery to be the sunshine of your day, but I have a broken heart inside, the pieces of my heart gone forever. All the words I want to say are confined inside my heart, just waiting to scream to the world. I can't scream, my voice taken away from me. And I gave up.


I don't know if someone else is affected by this, but I can say if this is you, or another person. All I know is that I'm confused, and unaware of the thoughts and feelings around me, and concerning me. This life has not yet achieved an ending, but it is up to me to find my own ending, may it be a happy ending or a tragic ending.